In the Moment

Mom always says that it is never as bad or as good as it seems in the moment. Well lately, it's been pretty bad. Not that I am feeling less blessed or less loved, but I have been facing some situations that I just really do not want to face. I am so lucky to have the support of my family and friends in life, and I have no idea where I'd be without them. Mom is right though: it really isn't as bad as it seems in the moment. I have found that I can be quite a drama queen, but if I step back from the situation and just breath for a minute, I get over it pretty quickly. That is one good thing about college: you grow up. I have learned more about myself in the past few months that I expected or even wanted to. I've been put in situations that before these lessons, I probably could not have handled. I have an amazing mother with tons of advice, a sister with Blackberry messenger that is always ready to text right back, and a sister that knows exactly when to send me a text that says "damn, you're a sexy chick". Life is not always going to be easy, but at least I have the support to get through the day with a smile. I know that if I take it day by day, it'll all be ok. And in the end, if all else fails, I know what is important in life and I know where I need to be and what I need to do to get there.

Baby Steps

Laine Ann Caldwell.

I didn't expect this little baby to change my life the way she has, for I am just an Aunt, but then I realized..I am an Aunt. I want Laine to always know that if she gets in a fight with her mommy, and we all know that teenagers have that stage, that she has me and Chelsea to come to. I know Mom always used to say that she wished that Greer, Chelsea, and I would just get along. Well, I think Mom finally got her wish. It's not the same with the three of us anymore. We can have adult conversations where fighting isn't even the back of my mind. I respect their opinions and I look to them for advice. Maybe pride and naivety was in the way before, but I have realized that I am more than just the "baby" in the family. I am a sister, a daughter, and an Aunt and I need to step up to the plate!
I want Laine to also realize how much of a difference she has made in my life.
I have learned to respect Greer more than I ever thought I could. Seeing her go through the stages of pregnancy and then giving birth to this amazing child has made me love my sister so much more. Not to say that I didn't love Greer before Laine, but I think a new kind of love has formed. I don't just love her for being an incredible sister, but for being an amazing mother. I see her with Laine and I know that she is going to do great things for this little girl and that this girl has done and will do great things for Greer as well.
I love my sisters with all my heart and I think that they are the most incredible people in this world. I realize I am biased, because I'm related...but Greer and Chelsea make me so proud to call them my big sisters.